There is no telling what the future holds. Basically, everything about life is a mystery; the beginning of it and the end as we are constantly reminded by our pastors. It is this ‘mystery’ that builds the foundation of many things like the content of our prayers because somehow we think we can convince whoever is aware of the future to change its course to match our desires. Maybe even increase our tithe; repent to be more convincing. With every new day added to my life, I realize even more how much NOT knowing the future may be the reason anyone can ever be truly happy at any moment. It’s like staying away from your partner’s phone or some logic similar to that. That the little you know-now-the better but ultimately time brings everything to light and our pastors turn out to be more accurate than anything in those moments.
Is there such thing as happiness? Is anything worth holding on to or is it all a ticking bomb waiting to justify Biblical verses and heated..no more of sweaty sermons. Someone pass my Pastor a handkerchief, I need to hear more, I need to connect the dots, I need to live my misery now because, maybe, there isn’t such thing as happiness.